I spent a week contemplating a topic for today’s post and many topics came to mind, but there didn’t seem to be any depth or inspiration to make those topics worth your time. It’s Saturday night and I just finished visiting and commenting on several blogs that I enjoy reading and I found some new ones at the same time (thanks to link ups). Then it hit me, BAM this was what starting my blogging journey started out as and I began to remember my why for blogging in the first place.
Three years ago I hit the publish button on my first post, and while my blog was fashion and family focused I relished in the excitement of my first blog since before college. I started my blog from the inspiration of other fashion bloggers that are quite BIG in my opinion; however Coury Combs of Fancy Tree House was my main inspiration and right away I fell in love with blogging. Deep down blogging filled a void of my lonliness. My husband worked a job that kept him from home in the evenings and because my children went to bed at 7 back in those days I was rather lonely in the evenings and most of the people I use to see were almost a distant memory.
Blogging was my world and creativity in the evenings. I met SO MANY amazing women through blogging (teachers, moms, entrepreneurs, my SeneGence “LipSense”coach, etc) and I eventually found that blogging brought avenues of opportunities with brands, agencies and more. Several months ago that changed. I don’t know what it was but all of a sudden I didn’t care as much as I did before. I stopped joining link ups, I turned down collaborations or only half planned them or not at all and I began to spiral down a hole of depression. Blogging seemed draining, unintentional and I was no longer inspired. Then this post happened (which explains it all).
I thought I was leaving blogging but my husband had the idea of blogging together. I was not supportive of this idea at first, but in a nutshell here I am again. However, it feels like I am starting over. I still have my followers and loyal readers but it just feels different. I have to start finding more of my “voice” my “niche” and perhaps seek out new blogs to gather inspiration from.
Now I have found my new why for blogging. Before I was lonely, now I am full. I think my new why is to share in what God is doing in my life. I have grown so much in just a month. I have learned to laugh, love and just live and while those three “L’s” seem cliche and can be read on every plaque or frame it is the truth in my life right now where my past held lonliness, anxiety, jealousy, worry, self-loathing, etc,. I am thankful God has given me a chance to document all that He is doing and I am thankful that He fills me daily. I know that His purposes are higher and better than mine and so I pray this blog can be used to share what He is doing. Thank you for joining me in this journey.