Yesterday our church held a wonderful service in honoring our countries servicemen and women and veterans in early recognition for Veterans day coming Wednesday. After service a special lunch was hosted by our church family for Veterans and their families. We attended and enjoyed the food and drinks and while we ate I looked at my husband across the table feeding one of the toddlers and just felt proud and honored for his service to our country.
As we neared the middle half of our meal I made mention to our six year old Nevaeh that we were eating and celebrating the men and women who fought for our country, our soldiers and I told her that “daddy was a soldier and is now a Veteran.” After some talking Nevaeh asked my husband “what did you do as a soldier?”
My husband and I looked at each other, how could this be explained to a six year old in the moment? My husbands response “My job was to kill people.” There he had said it and without glancing her way he held a moment of regret mixed with bitterness on his face. She didn’t question and we didn’t talk about it further. We didn’t sugar coat it and tell her “oh daddy fought for our country so that we could be free” or “daddy wanted to fight off bad guys.” No, the truth was spoken and this my friends and readers is why my husband is not proud to be a veteran.
Sure my husband enjoys being honored with freebies like free meals and things on Veterans day and the perks of his Post 9/11 G.I. Bill for schooling, but he will be honest with people and tell them he was never proud to be a soldier.
Through out our marriage I have tried to dig deep into the root of why he isn’t proud and here are a list of things he has told me:
1). He was young when he made the decision
2). His cousin died while he was in training and he couldn’t even attend the funeral back home
3). He served in Afghanistan for a year and was shot at and life at risk daily
4). He suffers from PTSD to this day (certain sounds makes him think something is going off).
5). BIG ONE- He is not proud of America and what we have become. Yes, at times he would rather we move to a different country (like Israel). His reasons- We have lost our morals and turned our back on God and we have rejected the principles our whole country was founded upon and based on. Our country has become, do what is right in your eyes.
6). He is not proud of his once job description in the army- to kill!
Sure many of you may think well he shouldn’t have gone into the military as he must have known what he was getting in to. Actually he didn’t thinking much about combat, however 911 happened and BOOM war. There he was serving Army infantry at the lines of death and war in an unknown country far from home and family.
Yesterday I asked him though about some of the positives of serving our country:
1). Free housing, good benefits
2). His camaraderie and men he served with, he met one of his best friends this way.
3). He drew closer to God and felt a calling for ministry
4). Veterans day benefits
5). It made him go from a boy to a man
While my husband may not be proud of his former Army career and all that entailed I am proud to say I appreciate and am honored for what he went through and for all that he did to do what he could.
My outfit today is in honoring him and all the soldiers that have (and still are) fighting for our country.I added blue with the jeans, red in the shirt and a touch of Olive or Army green military jacket I recently recieved in collaboration again with Brandzaffair. Brandzaffair is a site that lets you navigate and shop your favorite stores like Target and Old Navy without the hassel of remembering website URL’s as they are all in one place for the ultimate shopping experience. I just love how thick this jacket is for the cooler part of the day in this fall weather and how comfortable it still is for the rising temperatures, plus it’s stylish and versatile, win win and win.
How are you honoring Veterans on veterans day? Are the ones you know that served proud?
*Brandzaffair sent me the following item in exchange for a review of their site however all opninions are mine alone and not that of Brandzaffair.
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